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WOW Its been a long since i came to my own blog...
Nvm i came with a good news.
Jason Mah has proposed to me & i have agree too, we have already book
our ROM date @ 4th of Jan 2011.
After been through so much with him, i think i really can live with him for the rest of my life.
He still my last station like i hope so when i just started out with him this path.
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Posted @ 7:55 PM
♥.
u using urself as part of putting me to right track...
excellence plan...its working...
if i can work a job happily,
when thing are like tat mean ur not in my life anymore...
hope the result of ur plan is wat u want...
hurting me like tat just to get me back to track so worth it...
and u noe as alway i dont agree the way u think at some thing...
like this plan to u its a great plan cos even i dont success back to track u can leave so easily...
to me u already leave me...
when u leave me too long soon alot thing will backfire...
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Posted @ 1:43 AM
♥.
"Reason I'm Alive"
Whatever happened to till death do us part?
Together forever slowly severed us apart
You know, dreams are just like lies (dreams are just like lies),
when you walk away?I never want to feel again,
as the blackness settles in
And I only have one thing left to say
You're the reason that i'm alive
Twist that knife but I just won't die
You're the reason that i'm alive (reason that I'm alive)
Leave you here as you watch me fly away
Woah-oh, woah-oh, as you watch me fly away Watch me fly away
Whatever happened to the lies that I believed?
And wasn't it you that said the truth will set us free?
You know, dreams are just like lies (dreams are just like lies),
when you walk away?
And we never even had a chance, as the sadness slips away
And I only have one thing left to say
You're the reason that i'm alive (reason that I'm alive)
Twist that knife but I just won't die
You're the reason that i'm alive (reason that I'm alive)
Leave you here as you watch me fly away
Woah-oh, woah-oh, as you watch me fly away
Woah-oh, woah-oh, as you watch me fly away
I'm rising up on broken wings
And I'm choking back these empty sins
Well I hope you take this, take this as you want
You're the reason that i'm alive (reason that I'm alive)
Twist that knife but I just won't die
You're the reason that i'm alive (reason that I'm alive)
Leave you here as you watch me fly away
Woah-oh, woah-oh, as you watch me fly away
Woah-oh, woah-oh, as you watch me fly away
Watch me fly, watch me fly, watch me fly away
Watch me fly, watch me fly, watch me fly away
Watch me fly, watch me fly, watch me fly away
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Posted @ 8:31 PM
♥.
I wasnt trying to save the relationship which its was end at 16/04/2009...but i really wanted to know if everything really end...
i asked a question to him again..."really over ? that day we was discussing abt marriage so really over ?"
he say he need to have time to think...so i waited...but i really couldnt get to slp really want the answer asap...so i ask if i want the answer right away what it will be...he didnt reply...iwait and wait till i fall aslp...
when i wake up i saw nth on my hp yet but suddenly a msg came...he say answer is " tml come my hm he pai pai me slp in the afternoon...then he go cook a nice meal...then when i wake up can have a good meal..." ^_^ i was shock and happy....
everything went back...we are back together...feel so sweet...we patch up after a big fight on our 1yr 6month anniversary...<3
Love Him Always
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Posted @ 1:54 AM
♥.
Its weird few days ago we was discussing abt marriage and future planning...now its all gone
Its all happen from previous night....
He had to went home cause his father has a surgery the next day, as usual i will miss him. Cant get to slp like usual too when without him ard, finally next day, i was waiting for his msg to tell me whether his father is alright anot...need to stay at hospital anot...thinking and worry...what is he doing at there alone...scare he is had to worry abt me too if i contact him and say what i was thinking all the way...just like that waiting and waiting...
Later afternoon a call came, he told me he reach hm already (i was thinking y he did not even msg me dont tell me in transport to hm not even a free time to msg), asked me go to his hm but i find excuse to drag and didnt go (cause i was abit angry that he did not even make the effort to msg me when he know i told him no matter his father need to stay at hospital anot let me know but also due to i know he is too busy so i think better dont go to add on his burden since i cant help much).
He msn me i did not reply cause i fall aslp, whole night till afternoon then receive call from him so tired so i fall aslp damn fast and deeply into dreamland. i even put the laptop beside me but i still did not heard the msn alert sound...sigh...by the time i wake up its damn late thinking i shld not disturb him cause i saw he msn say cooking after that went slp...must be very tired taking care father and cook and still have to accompany mum...then i receive one msg from msn saying wat very disappointed in me blah blah after i read i was damn disappointed too...after not long receive his call to my hp (i was damn happy to hear his voice after this whole day) he ask me what i was doing i say nth and he asked y i didnt call him (i think he did ask before i say this --->)i joke that y i cant angry is it...then the call just went out cause no more credit...i msg him told him no more credit he reply back nvm...and...complain that i ignoring him and seem angry tot that i was thinking abt myself again...this time round i was not joking already im really angry.
Later on he told me on msn that he keep on on the pc until his dad does not want to call out for him to help causing the wound alot blood come out and stuff...i was so gulity all because i fall aslp...
He said wanted to end the relationship...cause he very disappointed in me and he didnt even know what i was angry abt...straight away i was thinking few days ago we was just discussing abt marriage only now he can so easy said broke off...my heart totally broke...but i did not try to save our relationship cause this time i think its partly my fault if im not his gf he wont worry abt me till neglected his father...causing the wound open...i shld not save the relationship...its my fault
Remembering his mum say before im a very unlucky person...guess its all because of me...
Today he came take his stuff, actually wanted to see him even not talking to each other at least i can see him one more time...but i rem he msg me say he do not want to see me...so i go to my mum room while he take his stuff...didnt get to see him at all...after he went out i went back to the room seeing the bracelet i give him for his birthday present was on the table i totally lost control my tears just keep on flow out...my heart keep aching...
Totally lost the only person i have...
i dont know who to reach out to say, i got not much friends that i can share...no where to go...
so i came to my blog, cause i know no one will came to my blog even him cause i rem i change my address for my blog...
now all i have is my blog and my tears accompany me...now tears too much covering my eye and i also what to write already...mayb later on i will be back again at my blog...
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Posted @ 2:39 PM
♥.
There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
He's always there for her.
She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything,
including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying,
"just take care of my eyes dear."
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Posted @ 1:16 PM
♥.
The last post i written seem like he gave up on me but we are still together til now oh~i finally understand even wen its seem like he dont care but actually he been doing lots of thinking and caring in a way i do not know...
Somehow i really feel safe with him by my side...as u guys know too i been stop work for a long period now im updating my resume and sending it out hope everything went out great...
Let u guy shock about a thing i gain 10kg after being with JasonMah T.T now i having a hard time to get rid of all the extra fat i have..everyone saw me kept saying im fat i very sad lor...but its hard to control my love for japanese seaweed chicken; all those fried stuff...lucky i can manage to control my love for snack a little bit hehe^^...the most hard part to control is my meals..especially the dinner everytime going over to JasonMah home his mum owes gib us a big feast i really love it but its remind abt all the fat i gaining its make me want to gib up losing weight and eat all the food tat his mum cook haha im a person easy to gib up on losing weight its hard u know...there was once i spend 3 yr to cut off 5kg wat a long period hehe..
Remember your promise to me oh-Never Leave Me~Ah Dear~
I Miss YOU~AhMin~
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