everyone will wan to recall abt her/his only true love memories~~
guess wat he say to me wen~~i ask him abt in future he will recall abt me ma...
"no point recall wen im jus beside him all along"
e excat word i do not hw to type in word i jus noe its similar n its reali sweet to me...normally im e wan hu afraid to lose my love i reali touch wen i noe he is oso same as me afraid to lose each other~~
"dear i may not gd in words...but bleaf me i..
love u more than any one in my world~!!"
be only belong to me
30/10/2007
feel so useless...
He jus discharge from hospital not long ago...i finally less worry abt him..but i feel kind of useless infront of him...owes been taken care by him suddenly i feel so weird without him able to take care me...he is sick i don expect much...but ther is some hw i feel im not able to take care of him n worse i feel i don even understand a tiny bit of him...
even he is jus rite beside me i dunno wat is he tinking,
feel e gap n emptiness....hai
i keeping asking myself if i cant even be ther wen he nid me...even jus taking care of him m i still being a gd gf...he is a gd bf...n i jus cant do anything for him...feel so useless
nw even i not feeling well i don dare to let him know
n let him worry...suddenly e gap appear
n i dunno hw to get near him
so afraid i cant even get close to him anymore~
so afraid losing him~~
dear i reali love u but seem like u deserve a better gf than me...
13/11/2007
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Posted @ 1:07 AM
finally he reach oh ~~
he is e one n only nw...been lost n was found by him...i nv expect my fren to stay wif me wen they noe e truth abt my health...i more nv expect anyone stay wif me which is not even was my close fren in e first place but guess wat he stay wif me n even became my current bf...he dote me but din spoil me...he argue wif me but din quarrel wif me...he let me noe e direction which i was nv noe hw to continue...
jus wanna say i love him~!
17/10/2007
wow i luv his family oh haha...let me once again felt e long lost family feeling...especially his mum so cute...actually i wonder hw his family think abt me ? wonder it is bad or good haix...cos i might not even be a gd gf to my bf hw m i going to be so confident abt hw his family feeling abt haix...
28/10/2007
hope for e best oh !!!
abt e whle he is =
JaSon Mah thiam beng
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Posted @ 2:39 PM
been tired tis year...alot of thing i lose n alot of truth reveal too much to accept n too much to adapt...all i nid nw is jus someone ther for me n love me ...a person i can lean on n rest...
i mis all him but all ended n i nv wan to regain anything
all i wan is 'he' can share e simple life wif me, share e pain n all my happiness given by him.. be ther wen i nid him by my side even jus a hug n accompany fr him..
'he' = future bf
m i asking too much or im jus not worth for anyone to dote n loved by any person~~too tired to fall n climb again...hu can jus hold on to me wen they haf me to jus only him...
10-09-2007
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Posted @ 12:29 PM
