I wasnt trying to save the relationship which its was end at 16/04/2009...but i really wanted to know if everything really end...

i asked a question to him again..."really over ? that day we was discussing abt marriage so really over ?"

he say he need to have time to think...so i waited...but i really couldnt get to slp really want the answer asap...so i ask if i want the answer right away what it will be...he didnt reply...iwait and wait till i fall aslp...

when i wake up i saw nth on my hp yet but suddenly a msg came...he say answer is " tml come my hm he pai pai me slp in the afternoon...then he go cook a nice meal...then when i wake up can have a good meal..." ^_^ i was shock and happy....

everything went back...we are back together...feel so sweet...we patch up after a big fight on our 1yr 6month anniversary...<3

Love Him Always

Its weird few days ago we was discussing abt marriage and future planning...now its all gone

Its all happen from previous night....

He had to went home cause his father has a surgery the next day, as usual i will miss him. Cant get to slp like usual too when without him ard, finally next day, i was waiting for his msg to tell me whether his father is alright anot...need to stay at hospital anot...thinking and worry...what is he doing at there alone...scare he is had to worry abt me too if i contact him and say what i was thinking all the way...just like that waiting and waiting...

Later afternoon a call came, he told me he reach hm already (i was thinking y he did not even msg me dont tell me in transport to hm not even a free time to msg), asked me go to his hm but i find excuse to drag and didnt go (cause i was abit angry that he did not even make the effort to msg me when he know i told him no matter his father need to stay at hospital anot let me know but also due to i know he is too busy so i think better dont go to add on his burden since i cant help much).

He msn me i did not reply cause i fall aslp, whole night till afternoon then receive call from him so tired so i fall aslp damn fast and deeply into dreamland. i even put the laptop beside me but i still did not heard the msn alert sound...sigh...by the time i wake up its damn late thinking i shld not disturb him cause i saw he msn say cooking after that went slp...must be very tired taking care father and cook and still have to accompany mum...then i receive one msg from msn saying wat very disappointed in me blah blah after i read i was damn disappointed too...after not long receive his call to my hp (i was damn happy to hear his voice after this whole day) he ask me what i was doing i say nth and he asked y i didnt call him (i think he did ask before i say this --->)i joke that y i cant angry is it...then the call just went out cause no more credit...i msg him told him no more credit he reply back nvm...and...complain that i ignoring him and seem angry tot that i was thinking abt myself again...this time round i was not joking already im really angry.

Later on he told me on msn that he keep on on the pc until his dad does not want to call out for him to help causing the wound alot blood come out and stuff...i was so gulity all because i fall aslp...
He said wanted to end the relationship...cause he very disappointed in me and he didnt even know what i was angry abt...straight away i was thinking few days ago we was just discussing abt marriage only now he can so easy said broke off...my heart totally broke...but i did not try to save our relationship cause this time i think its partly my fault if im not his gf he wont worry abt me till neglected his father...causing the wound open...i shld not save the relationship...its my fault

Remembering his mum say before im a very unlucky person...guess its all because of me...

Today he came take his stuff, actually wanted to see him even not talking to each other at least i can see him one more time...but i rem he msg me say he do not want to see me...so i go to my mum room while he take his stuff...didnt get to see him at all...after he went out i went back to the room seeing the bracelet i give him for his birthday present was on the table i totally lost control my tears just keep on flow out...my heart keep aching...

Totally lost the only person i have...
i dont know who to reach out to say, i got not much friends that i can share...no where to go...
so i came to my blog, cause i know no one will came to my blog even him cause i rem i change my address for my blog...
now all i have is my blog and my tears accompany me...now tears too much covering my eye and i also what to write already...mayb later on i will be back again at my blog...

Marriage is the next stage of my life i going to enter... ♥ ♥ ♥